I want to share a funny story with you guys right now, if you don’t mind. So I’m doing a bible study by myself and its all about the love and care of the father and I’m in the book of Luke reading the parable of the lost sheep (Lk. 15) and of course John 10 comes to my head which is about the sheep knowing his shepherds voice and I’m doing this study and writing down a question I have for those around me that I thought was so good. I wrote “Do you know your shepherds voice? are you listening to him or do you have your earmuffs in?” and I’m like ‘heck yeah that’s a great question’ and I’m thinking ‘well I obviously know my shepherds voice and I LISTEN to him all the time’….. well let me tell you, that question was intended for myself. See the definition of listening isn’t waiting for it to be your turn to talk.
I was sitting in prayer this morning and kept talking to God about all sorts of things and then I looked at the clock and realized it was time to get ready because I was meeting up with a friend to go shopping for our office. I walked away from that moment believing God didn’t have anything to tell me when in relaity, I wasnt listening- I was just talking talking talking. Then I came back and sat in prayer before doing my study again and believed I was listening to God when in reality I didn’t even give Him a chance to talk. I sat in my study thinking this was so awesome and that people would have trouble answering that question and then as I kept going over it I realized I wasn’t listening to God the way I was preaching about. When God was speaking to me about listening to His voice I chose to ignore His. That study was not meant to be sent out to those I was intending to but instead it was for me to keep. I literally was running away from God instead of listening to what He has to say.
That hit like a load of bricks. Or a load of words I should say.
God’s goal for today is to have intentional conversations with us and when I say conversations I dont mean Him listening to us ramble about the traffic on the freeway and how annoying our parents are when they ask us to do the dishes. He doesn’t care that you’re upset that you got a ticket, He doesnt care that you’re mad about the red lights. He doesn’t care that you didn’t finish everything on your to-do list and maybe if he gave you more time in the day you could have.
He doesn’t work through your to-do list. God wants to use His time with you to talk about things that matter- things that are useful, He wants to use you in ways you aren’t letting Him because you believe that you are more deserving of attention. Don’t let yourself get caught up in your own self that you lose sight of who God is for us. Listen to what God has to say for once, don’t make it all about you- make it all about Him.